I ask myself this question a lot. It tends to happen after I have procrastinated writing a paper or after I have said something I shouldn't have. I figure that by being "me" I allow for myself to get into situations in which I have to get myself out of. The only problem is is that I do this all the time and I haven't seemed to have learned from past mistakes. So, again and again this question is on my mind. I frustrate myself more than any other person does...I find myself pathetic very frequently. I mean, I love myself. Whole heartedly. I just drive myself insane!
For example:
I hear my alarm go off. I know I have get up because I have class. I went to bed at 2am and I have to get up at 8am to get ready for class. I say to myself "Get UP you lazy ass!!!" But, then I think "you can sleep in a little bit longer and just forfeit makeup"...I hit the snooze button, climb into bed and sleep for another 15 minutes. The alarm goes off again. I tell myself "well my professor posts the lecture...I can sleep in till 11am." This may not be a problem if I did it once, but this happens frequently...
Now I'm up at 215 am watching TV shows online, because I am neither tired nor feeling inclined to lie down and try to fall asleep...
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